Waiting for Pathology Again

Hello again, well today I am thinking about what is going on with my husband. He is a testicular cancer survivor for the last seven years and he is also a diabetic. Within the last few weeks we have found out that one of his kidneys was failing and died. He has undergone all these different test and found that his kidney was not getting any blood flow and one of them was totally dead. Last week he underwent a kidney removal and has been in the hospital for the last nine days. He had his surgery 5 days ago … Continue reading

Kidney Removal Surgery

So my husband had his kidney removal surgery and it actually went a little better than I was planning. The surgery was scheduled to last about 3 hours so when the doctor came out 1 ½ hours after the surgery started I was rather concerned. If you ever watch a medical show on TV you know that if a surgery is over too fast it usually means there are complications like the patient dying or having cancer spread throughout their body. So when the waiting room phone rang and the volunteer said the surgery was over and she took me … Continue reading

Cancer and Stress

My husband’s kidney biopsy has come back and it was negative. I am not sure why it took for me to see the report for me to believe it was true. The surgeon told me he was sure it was not cancer, our primary told me it was not cancer but until I saw the pathology saying no cancer I still thought there was a chance it was cancer. I do not know if this fear in my head will ever go away but the reality is that this fear is so all consuming and overwhelming. I find myself not … Continue reading

I Meet my Oncologist

OK so I have my pathology report it is in my new Cancer Binder now what? I have been down the cancer road before unfortunately. When my dad was 47 he died of esophageal cancer and the year before I got my diagnosis my husband had testicular cancer. His cancer was caught very early and he had his surgery, had radiation and was now considered cancer free. I was sitting in my house with my computer trying to decipher the pathology report but I was VERY overwhelmed. I called my surgeon gave me his recommendation as to what oncologist to … Continue reading

Movie Review: “Griffin and Phoenix,” 2006

Every so often, I love to curl up and watch a good movie. This afternoon, I chose “Griffin and Phoenix,” the PG-13 film starring Dermot Mulroney and Amanda Peet. It’s a very thought-provoking story about a man named Griffin who has terminal cancer, but is determined to live each day to the absolute fullest. When he meets Sarah Phoenix, he keeps his secret from her, not wanting to cast a shadow on whatever time they might have to spend together. As their relationship progresses, he learns that she has a secret of her own, and they spend the rest of … Continue reading

My Husband is Pretty Great

It’s nice to say that – when you consider how often you hear complaints from married couples. A few years ago, we got into the habit of complimenting each other regularly. We try not to complain too much, but of course, complaints are inevitable. But today, I have no real complaints – because my husband is pretty great and over the last week or two, he’s been pretty phenomenal. It’s going to be all right. My Surgery He was worried about the surgery that I needed to undergo as much as I was. But he did a great job of … Continue reading